stories to share to the one i love..

Here I am again, in that dodgy motel in Kemaman writing this post. It’s 5.15am on a Christmas Eve.

How fast time flies? The last thing I remembered was waking up on New Year’s Day this year to an SMS from someone that in the end became my girlfriend for 5 months. Well we broke up a few days before my birthday but somehow, someway, we’ve managed to be friends till today. And I’m really thankful for that. I still care and in love with her, and that’s the truth. Maybe not now, maybe not today, but maybe in the future we might cross out paths again in all that heart’s matters.

Last January, I was working with a person who I thought can be my close friend. Someone who I thought I can count on. But everything went really slow and being me, the impulsive and impatient Taurean, really can’t take it. I was losing my cool everyday. I was broke, I felt hopeless most of the time, and my girlfriend that time couldn’t take it anymore. That’s the main reason why we broke up: simply because she can’t afford to be in a relationship when most of the time she felt pity towards me for being broke and almost jobless.

I went to a deep depression really quick. And the situation in the office didn’t help. Things were getting worse between me and my business partner that time, mostly about money.

That’s when I’ve decided to leave that partnership. Nothing more can be done to fix it and I don’t see any use of me staying in that company and pretending that everything is gonna be ok.

I sank deeper into depression. I became paranoid. I was scared of facing the next day. I was scared to leave my room: afraid that I will be judged just because I don’t have a stable and steady job. I thought about the future all day that time. How am I going to survive? How am I gonna make it in life? How am I gonna achieve my dreams?

Then one day, I’ve just had enuff. I know that I have to do something. I know that if I want to change, first, I HAVE to make that change.

I started making phone calls, writing emails, talking to ppl I know. Ppl what somehow can give me contacts to do projects for them. Small favors. And from there, I’ve managed to earn money on a weekly basis but it wasn’t much. Sometimes it was RM50, sometimes more, sometimes less than that. But anything to keep me running and continue working on a daily basis and I was surviving.

I’m glad that I got this laptop, the one I’m using to type this post now. This is my portable office. It’s from here that I plan everything and keeping everything in check regarding my contacts and projects, no matter how small it was. She ran perfectly all the softwares that I am depending my life on like Adobe suites, Microsoft Office, and Firefox. Plus she ain’t got any issues connecting to any Wi-Fi networks unlike some laptop other people have.

Anyway, back to my story, I was pretty good at surviving until one day I received a call asking me whether I know anything about setting up a wireless network on a very large scale. Frankly speaking, I know nuts about it but my guts told me to say “YES”. And so a new journey began in my life.

Fast forward 3 months after that phone call was made, here I am in this dodgy hotel, typing this before I go to bed. I’m servicing the client here later around 10am. Doing server maintenance and consulting for their network. And discuss the details on what kind of training they want their staffs to receive.

I’ve earn enuff from this project alone that if I stayed home for 365 days next year, I can still have some to save for at least half of the year after that.

And all this, is just the beginning, me and my newest partner are expanding in January to a bigger market in a larger ocean.

Somehow I’m glad that I have the courage to leave that former venture and have the guts to say “YES” to that phone call 3 months ago.

To be frank, I am still scared about what’s going to happen in the next year. All I can do is hope. That’s all I’ve been doing. Having hope to me is better than nothing. Hope is what gives me the strength to wake up and continue working every single day. Especially when facing this global economic downturn.

So there. Here’s to the coming year. Here’s to me. Here’s to the ppl who matters. Here’s to ppl who’ve lend me their ears when I needed them. Here’s to ppl who believed in me. Here’s to friends. Friends who kept me in check and told me to keep going on when I was really down.

Thanks guys. Thank you everyone. Thank you dear.

Have a great year ahead. This is me signing off for 2008. Love.

Nazri@techsupremo – 5.52am, 24th December 2008, Kemaman, Terengganu.

trip tales...

as i wrote this, i'm in a cheap hotel in the middle of Kemaman town.

this room cost me, RM89 for the nite.

2 nights ago, i spend the nite in Impiana Resort Cherating. the room was ok, the best part of it was dozing off to the sounds of the waves crashing.
it was nice.. and it cost me RM250 for that nite. not forgetting the "sound effects" heard at 4am in the morning due to thin walls between the rooms.

last nite, i spend the nite in Legend Resort Cherating. nothing to shout about. it was just a basic deluxe room for twin sharing with the normal shebang (tv, coffee & tea making facilities, blablabla).
the place was filled with families and kids (yeah2, it's the school holidays). i can see the beach from my room. it cost me RM289 with breakfast to stay there.

today, i'm in this kinda dodgy room. the bathroom looks no different than what i've seen in self recorded malay porns. the bed is decent enuff, the comforters have Garfield prints on it.
but i tell you, this is the best hotel i've stayed in so far thru out this trip.

here's the reasons:

1. the TV rocks. it's 21 inch (both Impiana and Legend had 15 inches tv), it has AV input (both earlier tvs just had RF, i brought the PS2 on this trip thinking that i can hook it up in the room to play but couldn't thanks to the connection)

2. the tv channel has ESPN and Star World (Impiana had VERY limited Astro channels, Legend had that stupid Vision Four channel that i thought was gone a long time ago).

3. RM89 INCLUDES BREAKFAST!!

4. breakfast is served in a FULLY WI-FIed CAFE in this dodgy building.

5. the front office doubles as a convienience store where the price is the same like normal mini mart (other hotels will cut your throat with their price even for a can of Coke)

6. IT'S ONLY RM89!!!

anyway the reason why we had to move here and there to catch a nite's sleep was because those big2 hotels can offer only one nite of accomodation to us due to other ppl's cancellation. we can't extend our stay, simply because they were fully booked.

it was pure luck we found this hotel. it's at the end of the road in the middle of Kemaman town.

will stay here again the next time i come here.

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i've never felt so good when the Wi-Fi connection at the warehouse i'm working at went up just now. oh, in case you guys didn't know, i'm installing and deploying Wi-Fi network for this one company at their warehouse for the whole company's use. pretty much making them, the first company in Kemaman to use FULLY WIRELESS network in their warehouse compound to connect to the net and each other.

it's this kinda satisfaction that makes me love my job.

beats anything during my days in the cubicle.

tomorrow will bring another new challenge for me. and i can't wait to face it and beat it.

i'm just not the "office-drone" type.
:D