tired legs and enchanted mind...

i can't believe that i'm finally here...

greetings from the land of Angkot Wat.. more pictures soon. heheh..

daa!~

things to ponder while i'm gone..

hmm.. the starting is always the hardest to come by. that first paragraph, that first sentence. that very first word.

anyhow, i'm back. for a while. so rejoice everyone! hehhe.

i've been really busy. i dunno how many times i've been saying that for the past couple of months. seriously, busy. with life, with work, and back to life again.

everything is good. i'm enjoying each and every moment of it. no matter if i get something or not out of it, i dun care. i'm in good hands now, and i'm proud to say that i can take care of myself. *smiles.

which brings me to my point of pondering for the past few hours. yes it was a very busy day for me, but that didn't stop me from pondering in the car while waiting for some morons to move in the traffic jam.

i personally think that God only gives us things, only when we are ready for it. and when He gave us that (whatever that is), there must be a reason and education that we need to get from it.

now, how did i come up with that?

ok.. i was a very lonely teenager. lonely in sense that i never had high school sweetheart(s). not that i never had a crush in someone, but ever since back then, i have this very acute problem with self esteem. yes i was a popular kid back in high school. but i kept questioning myself, "why all these ppl like me? i'm just a kid who's blessed with the gift of music" (was in the school's band before and thus makes me VERY popular)..

i didn't have a girlfriend till i was 21.. and boy does that experience taught me a lot about women.

i think that all my ex-es came to my life to teach me something. and i'm glad that i've finally came around that (long ago!). lesson learnt. not only them tho, all the scandals, flings etc. all of them taught me something.

now, same case with my job. i used to can't be able to hold a job for more than 6 months. be it any job. not that i suck at it, but there's always something that happened that makes me got laid off. it's weird when i come to think about it back then.

then slowly, i realised that all my previous jobs, were there to teach me about values that i lack. i slowly upgraded myself.

when it comes to friendship, same thing. i got a set of best friends whom i respect and value their friendship so much. i met them, all of them, out of randomness.

things happened in place ONLY WHEN U ARE READY IN THE RECEIVING END. at least that's what i understood about God's will.

u may not like that place/food/music/etc at first, but when He thinks that you are ready, at a blink of the eye you WILL like it. hehehe. weird eh..

i remember i used to hate breakbeats and techno and trance and all genres related to it. now? my favorite music to chill out to is dance house, top 5 DJs that i want to see their gig is Van Dyk (done), Oakenfold (done), Carl Cox, Digweed and Seb Fontaine.

weird.. really weird..

so to those out there who thinks that they can already settled for anything, be it marriage or work or house or whatever, my advice is just wait. there should be a surprise coming your way. only time will tell.

:)

it's finally sunday. tomorrow i will leave for my first ever vacation outside this country. heh. i just can't wait for it. yes, i am ready. and this is my time.. i will be back with updates from Cambodia itself if i can find a nice cybercafe. else, i'll see u guys next weekend. till then, have a great week ahead, have a good merdeka, make lotsa love (LOL!)... hehhee

Mr Tech signing off..

daa!~

let the countdown begins..

7 more days to cambodia. 5 more dreaded days in this office.

i'm like the narrator in Palahniuk's Fight Club day by day. i'm just waiting to meet my Tyler Durden. hmm... perhaps on the flight to cambodia next week.

i'm afraid i will trash this office and throw everybody out of this 23rd floor window. hypocrisy runs high here till i can smell it in the air. ok. maybe it's just me.

for the past few months i've been thinking about my life again. yes.. AGAIN.

like i told D last saturday, i'm trapped between wanting to do things that i like, and do stuffs that actually pays the bill. i dun wanna wake up each day and walk to the office and been plugged to the matrix. i dun want to be like this forever.

yes, the sound of security and promise of "money-in-the-bank-at-the-end-of-the-month" is too hard to resist. but does that include sacrificing your talent and interests? no rite?

i wonder how many of ME out there..

anyway i've been meeting new ppl lately. ppl that doesn't seem to be plugged to the matrix and seems to be doin just fine with their lives, doin stuffs they do best.

i envy them. i seriously do. they have something that i do not have. at least now..

which is the GUTS to do it. seriously, i wish i could quit my job today, walk into a bank, take a RM500K loan, and start my magazine straight away...

maybe i SHOULD do that? maybe.. just maybe... i think i've learned enuff in this office. at this post, stupid middle management (so called)...

*sigh

on a lighter shade of story, i got a new family member in the house. yes, the lonely PS2 has been replaced.. i have taken the path to next gen gaming with..

ladies and gentlemens.. meet my new friend...

been busy with Gears of War, The Darkness, F.E.A.R, Dirt and of coz.. Dead Rising. hehehe..

so many new games coming out. next week is Assasin's Creed. woot!! can't wait for John Woo's Stranglehold..

so there you have it. my step into next gen gaming. what i need now is a 32-inch LCD TV in the living room to enjoy this as it was intended. hehehe..

i'll be back.. soon i hope. in the meantime, wish me i dun kill anyone.. in real life..
hahahha!!!

daa!~

broken promises and sugary statements...

i broke a promise.. made in the last post..

yeah i've been missing. too busy with work and life. i'm sorry for all. to those who sms-ed, PM-ed me asking if i'm ok or not, sorry for making u guys worried.

seriously i have been really, really busy. but it's all good!!

hehheh...

confirmation : i AM DEFINITELY going to cambodia come august 27th. got my tickets, my passport, and partner. we are so gonna rock angkor wat. the plus point to our journey is gonna be The Killing Fields since we are gonna leave cambodia from Phnom Penh.

i've done my reading about The Killing Fields. i'm expecting a huge emotional turmoil when i'm there... humans as beasts. all in the name of war.

oh well the weekend is here. i've just finished my long overdue work. finally the website is up. and i can say "phew!".

gotta go now. today is a good day to look at ppl and ponder. hehehe.. must make stop to starbucks later. hehhe. i'll update again when i got the time. in the meanwhile, just drop me an sms. no matter how late it is, i WILL reply.

now that's a true promise.. :)

cheers ppl.. have a good weekend..

daa!~

note...

dear blog..

i've been neglecting u for more than a week now..

i promise u i shall update u in the next 16 hours..

nite2...

daa!~